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发信人: systemer0 (听听), 信区: AdvancedEdu
标  题: take care F1&F2 (续前)
发信站: BBS 水木清华站 (Sun Nov 30 17:23:59 1997)

Hi, dear friends,

I did not expect that I could receive so many replies when I was writing the
"Take Care F1&F2". Thank you, all the friends! Actually, that is just a
small part of my original writing, which was writen in a sleepless night with
a lot of tears, great remorse and agony. At that time, I thought I was too
fragile and I did not know whether other refused F2 felt so painful. By now,
I believe almost all of us share the same suffering feeling. And as I
mentioned before, some F2s are in worse condition.

I am working for the Beijing representative office of a famous foreign
company. I should have some chance based on the information provided
by some secondly successful F2. However, how about those wives who don't have
good jobs?

By all means, everybody will struggle to find a way to live together with
the other part. In order to achieve family reunion, a humanizing and ordinary
life in the peace time and civilization society, F1s, who should concetrate
on their scientific study, are meaninglessly consumeing much of their precious
intelligence, which is so cherished by  the professors, deans
and universities, even the society and the world! What a waste! F2s won't
calm down to do what they should do till they can hold their wife/husband's
hands! In the struggling and painful process, many illusions will have
been destroyed and shattered.

We did our best to avoid that kind of life tragedies and we carefully
selected a safest way proved year by year, getting full financial support from
the university through fierce competition. My husband received 5 offers from
5 well known universities. What we accepted is not the highest salary but his
most insteresting study field. The world is changing rapidly, but the
situation nowadays is absolutely out of our expectation, and that is why
there's so much pain and agony.

Miseries and  tragedies could stimulate artists' inspiration, but are not of
any benefit to those scientific geniuses (F1s) to give full play to their
wisdom.

Probably, I could get some benefit from the sadness and grief
as I can not sleep well and wake up very early everyday with anxiety and
apprehensions. I am not able to endure that kind of feeling in the deep
dark, then I get up to  write some things or read the HOLY BIBLE placed by
THE GIDEONS. I have begun to write the story of my husband's grandmother
whose husband died in 1950s without any family member around. Grandpa was
a  famous calligrapher. Grandma is 87 year old and has objected her grandson's
plan for studying abroad. Look, it looks like that I could be a writer
someday! Oh, no, my God, I definitely prefer to be a happy wife to cook for
my husband!!

It is snowing outside, though yesterday was such a nice sunshiny day.

(I am very sorry for I did not provide any useful information. I was so busy
these days as our CEO was visiting China and met with some big Potatos. I
was the intepretor. However, no matter where I was, there's  always a great
shadow in the bottom of my heart.

Hopefully, this kind of suffering days could be ended soon!)

Take care and good luck!

                   -------百合花
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FIREBIRD

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